What do you do when you spend your kid's whole life trying to make sure they don't deal with the same heart aches you did. Then you realize you were able to keep those out of his life, but you made all your own mistakes that he swears he's not repeating.
The Storm Inside
We all battle our own storm's inside, who's to say what's the right way and what's the wrong way? I am trying so hard to break generational curses like most people now a days, my family really struggles with handling emotions and tempers. As I got older, I started noticing I was the kind to lose my shit when I got overwhelmed. I always tried really hard to notice when it's coming but over the years, I've realized on my own wasn't enough. Like any good parent and wanting the best version of myself for my kids I started researching what to do. I have tried many things from Affirmation, to working out, to drinking special teas, to just straight drinking. Nothing has really helped so I reached out to my general practitioner about maybe trying some depression medication. I have always been a sceptic about it because when my son was born I delt with Postpartum depression and the medication they put me on numbed me completely and scared the crap out of me! Right out the gate this time I had a really good experience was feeling good not so depressed, emotional and wasn't flying off the handle over the little things it was the best! Well after a while I stared getting a little anger inside and they said they was a side effect of long-term use. So, we tried something else, and it has been the fight of my life, I finally started going to an online therapist she has been great and recommended trying a Telehealth therapy because there is just something about being in your own comfort zone to help you open up to a stranger about your problems. It diffinatly takes some time and you will meet some good ones and some crazies!
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